reshuffle

I made a decision
for a life of exclusion
that I said would have been only for a time.

Each had their own rules,
some more strict than others
some more beneficial than others

Though separation is painful
One is working as was intended
and will remain unchanged for now

For another, finding balance is harder
fighting for one thing pushes us farther
in a direction that is often muddled and hazed

And then the last works better for one
and for the other, not at all
a selfish pendulum that swung hard and lost its ball

For the latter two, more tweaking is required
One maybe needs to lose something and the other, gain
A balance that is all my own to acquire and maintain.