The drag of convincing myself to do that which I know must be done. Without drive or motivation I go through the motions, barely even keeping up with the pace set before me. My eyes open to greet the day and then sink shut with a heavy sigh when full consciousness reminds me of what lies ahead.
I arrive late, simply because there is no reason to be early. I desperately throw myself in, hoping to find something to grasp my interest long enough to maintain focus. Some days I get lucky.
It is not the passion for the picture that I lack. Rather the breakdown of the composition into its infinite components, revealing the crudity of the canvas’s threads and the very pigments that compose every shade of the paint. Thoroughly buried in minuscule pieces, the eyes become blurred until it is almost impossible to discern any object, not even a point.
Friday, May 27, 2005
Friday, May 20, 2005
isolated traits
'Life is relationships, everything else is detail.'
-unknown
Deeply attached and cursed, it becomes increasingly difficult to feel complete without the presence of someone loved and trusted. This ensures the formation of unbreakable and sincere bonds with those of choice, leaving others at bay. However, in the absence of those closest to the heart, a feeling of emptiness sets in, creating a void not easily filled. In a crowd of people… no, not strangers, peers… it is still possible to feel helplessly alone.
This dependence is not easily shaken. Its magnitude may fluctuate but it is never completely lost. It is an in-built nature that only those who also possess it will truly comprehend. Bonds between those of this trait are usually slower moving, deeply rooted, and lifelong. They share their inner curses together, comforted that though sometimes misunderstood by others, they are not alone, but knowing that those similar feelings of emotional isolation lay inevitably waiting to surface.
-unknown
Deeply attached and cursed, it becomes increasingly difficult to feel complete without the presence of someone loved and trusted. This ensures the formation of unbreakable and sincere bonds with those of choice, leaving others at bay. However, in the absence of those closest to the heart, a feeling of emptiness sets in, creating a void not easily filled. In a crowd of people… no, not strangers, peers… it is still possible to feel helplessly alone.
This dependence is not easily shaken. Its magnitude may fluctuate but it is never completely lost. It is an in-built nature that only those who also possess it will truly comprehend. Bonds between those of this trait are usually slower moving, deeply rooted, and lifelong. They share their inner curses together, comforted that though sometimes misunderstood by others, they are not alone, but knowing that those similar feelings of emotional isolation lay inevitably waiting to surface.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
taking notes
A most powerful method of communication, it speaks where words can no longer find the strength to be spoken. It effectively stirs emotion, respective of the language of expression, or the background of the listener.
Though silence holds equal potential in its power to express, through music the heart can soar the heights of the sky, or hover close to the surface of the sea. It is an essential component of the language of life, whether the result be a dance, a smile, a thought, a memory, or a tear.
Though silence holds equal potential in its power to express, through music the heart can soar the heights of the sky, or hover close to the surface of the sea. It is an essential component of the language of life, whether the result be a dance, a smile, a thought, a memory, or a tear.
Friday, May 13, 2005
on the boundary
I always sit and watch as the excitement builds among those just talking about it. The beauty that is cricket is so much a part of West Indian culture that is it a shame some do not appreciate its intricacies. I am one of those.
Not for lack of exposure, for my father is an avid fan and many Saturday mornings were spent briefly beside him on the bed, his eyes glued to the set. The sitting and waiting did not excite me. I never accompanied him to games. I never wanted to.
As a member of a country with an active cricket team, I am as much a part of it as any other fan. Unfortunately however, it is not a part of me.
Not for lack of exposure, for my father is an avid fan and many Saturday mornings were spent briefly beside him on the bed, his eyes glued to the set. The sitting and waiting did not excite me. I never accompanied him to games. I never wanted to.
As a member of a country with an active cricket team, I am as much a part of it as any other fan. Unfortunately however, it is not a part of me.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
balanced
up and down it goes, like a pendulum it swings, the only prerequisite being a force to start with. though this starting force is different every time, the motion is predictable: no rise exists without a fall.
no rhyme or reason for the low, except the simple truth that forces must find equilibrium. if this be so, it is only time before it must rise again.
no rhyme or reason for the low, except the simple truth that forces must find equilibrium. if this be so, it is only time before it must rise again.
Monday, May 09, 2005
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
fair or foul
he knew he had faltered. as close friends they often shared everything candidly, but this was different. the news would undoubtedly carry devastating effects. he held a policy of honesty that he was now forced to think of breaking.
he thought of remaining silent, but feared the possibility of her independent discovery, the consequence of which would be far greater than his original act. knowing their friendship could be at stake, and realizing that was too high a price to pay, he worked through his fear and told her.
the news was devastating enough regardless of where she heard it. he did not expect forgiveness right away, but he hoped that because he chose to tell her, it would make a difference. he lost her anyway. had he not said anything, she might never have discovered, and their friendship would appear unharmed.
his moral dilemma: should he have just lied?
he thought of remaining silent, but feared the possibility of her independent discovery, the consequence of which would be far greater than his original act. knowing their friendship could be at stake, and realizing that was too high a price to pay, he worked through his fear and told her.
the news was devastating enough regardless of where she heard it. he did not expect forgiveness right away, but he hoped that because he chose to tell her, it would make a difference. he lost her anyway. had he not said anything, she might never have discovered, and their friendship would appear unharmed.
his moral dilemma: should he have just lied?
Monday, May 02, 2005
patriotic pieces
They entered her home without her permission and violated her privacy. They searched her belongings, ran wires through her phone and watched her as she moved. She opposed the use of her homeland for weapons testing and they knew it. She joined her countrymen in riots protesting the misuse and mistreatment of their soil, the infection of their air, their water, and their crops. They branded her a ‘terrorist’ for opposing the government cowards who placed her life and country at risk for their own merit, never once caring for the people they claim as their own. Many before her were arrested for flying their native flag.
She had seen friends caught protesting; their records altered and marred thus preventing any hope of future education in the motherland they loathe. They went elsewhere, she wanted more. In her small way, she wanted them to pay for the damage they had done. Someday she will return, but until then she will continue to work their system and milk their money, gaining her higher education with all the benefits at their expense.
She had seen friends caught protesting; their records altered and marred thus preventing any hope of future education in the motherland they loathe. They went elsewhere, she wanted more. In her small way, she wanted them to pay for the damage they had done. Someday she will return, but until then she will continue to work their system and milk their money, gaining her higher education with all the benefits at their expense.
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005
the way
‘Without the way you cannot go, without the truth you cannot know, without the life you cannot grow’
-unknown
Do you know for sure (100%) that you are on your way to heaven when you die?
If no, read on.
If yes for any one of the following:
-‘I am or try to be a good person’
-‘I read my Bible and pray’
-‘I attend church and/or are a member thereof’
-‘I am a member/part of a Christian/Catholic religion’…
though these are all good, the Bible doesn’t say they will get you there… also read on.
You can know!
'These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life, and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God.' (1 John 5:13)
Realize
‘As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:’(Rom 3:10)
‘For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;’ (Rom 3:23)
‘Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:’ (Rom 5:12)
Know
‘For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.’ (Rom 6:23)
‘For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:’
(Eph 2:8)
Going to heaven is a gift. Nothing you can do, whether be good, go to church, join a religion… will earn you that gift. You just have to reach out and take it.
Believe & Receive
‘That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.’ (Rom 10:9-13)
a simple prayer from the mouth of a believing heart should work just fine. no fancy words required.
The Promise
‘He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.’ (John 3:36)
The above is affectionately called the ‘Romans road to salvation’ because it is laid out quite clearly there. There are many religions you can join and church denominations you can be a part of, but all means nothing if the truth is not taught. Once saved always saved, and salvation is not about the deeds you do - those give you rewards in Heaven. However, don’t take my, or anyone else’s, word for it. Read it all for yourself.
‘Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.’
-Jesus Christ, The KJ Bible (John 14:6)
-unknown
Do you know for sure (100%) that you are on your way to heaven when you die?
If no, read on.
If yes for any one of the following:
-‘I am or try to be a good person’
-‘I read my Bible and pray’
-‘I attend church and/or are a member thereof’
-‘I am a member/part of a Christian/Catholic religion’…
though these are all good, the Bible doesn’t say they will get you there… also read on.
You can know!
'These things have I written unto you that believe on the name of the Son of God; that ye may know that ye have eternal life, and that ye may believe on the name of the Son of God.' (1 John 5:13)
Realize
‘As it is written, There is none righteous, no, not one:’(Rom 3:10)
‘For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;’ (Rom 3:23)
‘Wherefore, as by one man sin entered into the world, and death by sin; and so death passed upon all men, for that all have sinned:’ (Rom 5:12)
Know
‘For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.’ (Rom 6:23)
‘For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:’
(Eph 2:8)
Going to heaven is a gift. Nothing you can do, whether be good, go to church, join a religion… will earn you that gift. You just have to reach out and take it.
Believe & Receive
‘That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.’ (Rom 10:9-13)
a simple prayer from the mouth of a believing heart should work just fine. no fancy words required.
The Promise
‘He that believeth on the Son hath everlasting life: and he that believeth not the Son shall not see life; but the wrath of God abideth on him.’ (John 3:36)
The above is affectionately called the ‘Romans road to salvation’ because it is laid out quite clearly there. There are many religions you can join and church denominations you can be a part of, but all means nothing if the truth is not taught. Once saved always saved, and salvation is not about the deeds you do - those give you rewards in Heaven. However, don’t take my, or anyone else’s, word for it. Read it all for yourself.
‘Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.’
-Jesus Christ, The KJ Bible (John 14:6)
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