absent

It starts, barely recognizable; a small tightening on the inside.

The frequency of the occurrence increases. Then, as if coalesced with itself, it decreases in frequency but intensifies, becoming almost unbearable.

It pulls until it leaves a hole too large to fill with short, scattered efforts. It persists like an eager child, prancing up and down, heart pounding in anticipation, selfishly craving full attention.

Ignoring eventually achieves dormancy, but leaves the space empty. Temporary indulgence quenches temporarily. Permanence required.

tribute: music is

Mere strokes of black and white
that give birth to colourful expressions
of the deepest emotional passion,
compelling those within reach to respond
with excitement, calm, sadness, joy,
love, lust, awe and anger.

A stimulant of yearning or comfort
for a soul left solitude,
erupting memories with each measure,
bringing loved ones close
and lovers closer.

The voice of a people too poor to be heard,
that carries the weight of their burdens
with each note,
imprinting their hardships, successes, and hopes
of someday being ignored no longer.

The single most unifying element
between nationality, culture, race and class
yet so diverse it welcomes an earthly king,
praises the heavenly Father,
initiates revelry in the streets,
communicates and signals the rebellion of slaves,
and soothes a newborn to slumber.

All this and more and yet
music is... nothing

without you.

great expectations

a man who loves God with all his heart
and is obedient to His word.
a striving reflection of Jesus
to build a family that yields children who
love and respect God, others, and themselves.
who helps to teach and enforce what is right
and recognize that which is displeasing
not only to others, but to God as well.

a man who has a passion for life and goals,
not too similar to be boring,
not too separate to be incompatible.
who respects my thoughts and feelings
and is open and patient when ours differ.
who is willing to work through the differences
not to prove he is right, but to arrive
at a place we are both comfortable accepting.

someone who will listen and comfort
not only my words, but also my silence.
who loves me now, just the way I am,
not the way he expects me to be in years to come.

someone who sparks my spirit,
lifts me up and not pull me down,
to become one unit and strive
towards a common life's goal.
...to see heaven with.

someone I can be the same with
that I expect of him.

shortsighted

In this mortal life it be truly unfortunate to spend the fleeting moments in the absence of that which the heart loves most.

worm hole

a break in all things present
without reliving a past

the future, a constant
untouched, uncertain
as always

everything new
except the feeling

deja vu

I brace for the inevitable. The void forms quickly inside when my eyes open to the reality that part of me is missing. This is familiar... my soul sighs.

broken

disgusted by your inability to communicate without cursing in my ear... and no! I really DO NOT care how upset you are.

saddened by the loss of a time when friends were people with standards, who would tell it like it is, and encouraged what is right rather than comfort my confessed wrongs with the words ‘everybody’s doing it’.

sickened by a society of flesh flaunted, pierced, and painted, who indulge in every manner of bodily harm and force the same on those around you by your mere presence.

appalled by a generation so lacking in humility and discipline you shout at those who bled and bore you as if dirt beneath your feet, worthy only of disrespect and disdain.

tired of your deficit in decency.

collage

pssst oye!!
i know right
mmmmmk
so you say
what you want?
mi cyaa manage
listen dis ediat...
thup?
too faas man
wwWOOAAHHH, mi livah!!
zimme?
yup
allo
mi HUNGRY!!!!!!!
okey dokey
waddup?
yu nuh like u bed?!
fershlugginer!
for real!!!
wasssabi!
ok, cool
tayyad!!!
mi a mad yassoh
motherblogger
yeh yeh waddever
jklsefesopiweqf ok
VEX!
mi cyaan memba
tufffff
hey wazzup?
deh ya
go home chica
it ruff...trus mi...
U SEE IT!!
ok ok enuf joke fi one day
okidoki
a hoaah
it a kill mi
hype!
ciao
besos!
hobbit out!
ah BWOY!!!!
go a yu yaad man
mi LIVAAAHH!!!
Selah!!!
plant

serendipity

He entered and she noticed. She watched him as he experienced the sight and sound of his new surroundings. She mentally noted the uniqueness of his name as he introduced himself to his audience.

His talents shone over the course of his orientation, along with a personality that she quickly grew fond of. Their interactions were secretly treasured and increased in quantity and quality.

Under his impressive and jovial exterior, she found a sensitive, honest, intelligent, and purposeful individual in whom she could confide. Now one of her closest friends, she smiles when she thinks of him, and is grateful for the day she warmed to a stranger.

captured

The smallest fraction of a moment, engraved forever. Minute in duration but monumental in impact, it lays etched; vividly exposed through the shutters of the mind’s eye, arousing the senses to its memory.